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Name: Mandy
Country: United States
State: Georgia
Metro: Atlanta
Birthday: 3/27/1986
Gender: Female
Interests: okay so I love shooting archery and being outside and I love girl scouts(yeah yeah yeah I know I'm too old for that) but other than that I love watching baseball and just going out to have fun
Occupation: Student
Message: message me
Website: visit my website
AIM:  schweetheartGrl9
Yahoo:  sweetchica379
Member Since:
11/4/2004
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| so yeah I have a funny story to tell anyone who is willing to read......I kinda messed up my foot pretty bad.....but I have no clue how...I mean I had to go to the doctor and tell him that I had no freaking idea how the huge bump got on my foot....he looked at me like I was crazy.....so yeah now I limp and it hurts like hell but ya know its a pretty funny story to tell people.....Amy wants me to come visit her in Alabama but those ppl over there scare me so I'm not really sure but maybe I will try it one weekend when my gimp foot feels better..... | | |
| well yeah so its been a long time I guess I broke my promise.....so yeah Edgar presented a very valid point to me today.....I am lost.....no friends to turn to.....no one to save me when shit hits the fan.....just lost......wandering through a tunnel but there seems to be no light at the end......isn't that crazy.....all this time I just thought I was an outcast and now it turns out that I am just lost.....can't someone please find me......or help me find my direction......it seems to me like I am having to start all over again.....again.... | | |
| well wow haven't updated in a while......I guess its prolly time.....well easter should be fun times because my bf is coming to meet my mother and well it should be interesting.....anyways life is great right about now and I will update more often I SWEAR!!! | | |
| nobody fucking cares y do I even try anymore......life fucking sucks and I just wanna go away....I want everything to go away.......I hate everything about my life.....I hate feeling trapped.....I hate feeling abandoned......I hate everything I hate being vulnerable and needy......I dunno I have nothing else to say I guess......I mean not like anyone even reads this anyways......like I've said before......no one cares..... | | |
| ummm so yah I haven't updated in a while because I'm not sure what I can say without making someone mad.....I can't even express my feelings fully to anyone enymore......it feels like I have to hide myself from everyone in order to stay safe....I know that thats not the way it should be but I can't help it.......I feel like if I tell some people how I truly feel they wouldn't want to know me anymore.....the distance between me and the real world keeps growing and growing and I don't know if its me or if its just the way things work sometimes......I dunno......I wish that this neverending cycle would just stop.....I want to freeze time and just sit and wonder about the true meaning of life.....I know this entry sounds terrible but its really not......it feels good for me to be able to let out all of my anger and frustration and not care what people are going to think about it.....I know there are going to be a lot of questions about this entry but I really don't know how I am going to answer them......I feel pushed to the side lately like everyone else is happy and I don't deserve to be......I feel like I don't deserve anything anymore....I don't deserve to be happy like everyone else is and have someone there for me everytime I need a shoulder to cry on.....I don't have that comfort or that privelage and I dunno.......it just feels like I don't belong with my friends anymore.......like an ugly duckling or something like that.......does that make any sense at all????.......I dunno I am going home this weekend partly to figure all of this stuff out and try and understand why everyone else has someone and I don't have anyone.....I know I have my friends to care about me but thats just not enough sometimes.......I miss having someone special and I dunno I just wish that somehow I could get that back.......I guess I have said enough for one entry and I will have enough questions to answer now...... | | |
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